If you had told me ten years ago that I would end up being a stay-at-home-mom, I would have just laughed and thought you were crazy. But there you go. I just recently put in my notice at the job I've held (and generally enjoyed) for the past four years and as of May 1st have officially become a full-time stay at home mom. I'm definitely feeling like I'm struggling with this decision because, while I feel like it's the option that makes the most sense for me and my family, I also just never pictured myself as the Suzy Homemaker type, you know? I mean, I only learned how to cook properly five years ago. Before that I was famous for having made my mom grilled cheese and tomato soup for dinner one night when my dad was out of town and burning both then attempting to strain the burnt pieces out of the soup. But I'm also really happy about this decision. It's what my parents decided to do when my sister and I were little. Brian and I talked about it and basically decided that we only have one guaranteed chance (because we're not sure if we will have a second child) to raise a baby and we don't want to squander that opportunity just so we can afford a couple extra toys a month. I still haven't told a lot of people yet, because I almost have a sense of shame behind the decision; like I'm giving up and deciding to take the easy road instead of continuing to work. Part of that, I think, is because a couple of the friends I have told I turned in my notice at work have then said "where are you going instead?". I know they mean well, but it also kind of subtly hints that perhaps the idea of being a full-time mom isn't quite "job" enough, so I must have found traditional employment elsewhere. Bah. This is definitely rambling, I know. I'll keep you guys posted on how this new part of my life goes, I'm excited and apprehensive and nervous and all the feels. Wish me luck!